Friday, August 25, 2006
college..
college.. it was only know that i came to think of this word..
last wednesday,, while studying for our botany practical exam outside the bot lab,, i heard my two classmates.. anthony and gabay talking about college lyf..
anthony: "pare, di ko pa feel ang colloge.."gabay: "ako din .."i can't remember their conversation na eh,, hehe.. basta,, un.
same with them,, i can't feel college yet..its maybe the reason why i'm failing.. really.. honestly, i'm almost failing in my major subjects.. math, chem and botany.. i don't know.. was it really because i was not interested in those subjects? i was studying my lesson,, i just don't know why when the test papers were in front of me already , everything that i learned are gone! specially when taking botany exam,, while reading the questions, i tell myself.. "alam ko to ah,, teka nabasa ko toh.. shit anu nga toh!" and i can't remember it anymore,, hay.. i'm getting frustrated everytime i'll think of this subjects,, specially that of botany.. ms. doria said,, better drop the subject if you think you'll fail,, rather than having a grade of 5.. grabe! i was really thinking if i'll drop botany.. i failed in my monthly,, and it was really hard to do good this prelims,, i'm going to pass this subject if i'll be able to get a grade of 2 this prelims and another 2 on the finals,. shit! impossible! hay,, i really don't know what to do.. i haven't experienced this kind of failure before and its really killing me now.. but i decided not to drop botany,, bhala na.. never say die,, if i fail,, edi failed.. i-summer na lang.. i really think that i'll take botany this summer.. hay,, i really envy my friends who were not experiencing this same situation,,
"venz,, hay.. buti ka pa.. ang saya ng hrm noh.. "
i wanted to go back to lasalle. i wasn't that happy here in ust,, though i really enjoy being with my classmates, specially..
jelly star,
marionaise,
rodalet,,
rachon,, and
katchup..
cindy, and
yves .. i really feels so alone here,, specially last wed, when i really feel like crying because of what mam dorai had told us.. i was walking alone and i cud really feel the tears in my eyes,, sad thing is,, i got no one to cry to. . i really don't know what to feel that time,, thanks to rizza,, even if it was only through text that i was able to share my prblems,, she made me feel comforted. though gekay and armel were here in ust,, di kami masyado nagkikita-kita dito..si t2 ej naman,, di ko din makita.. we have different sked.. hay,, i wish i were in lasalle..
Papa God,, pls help me.. pls..
Monday, August 21, 2006
finally
weee.. finally! everything's ok. i mean, he's back,, my bestfriend is back .. hay.. been through a lot and i'm glad that everything is okei for the both of us.. may this be a start of a new frienship again,, ung suabe na,, hehe
"GIRL POWER"
"Scary, Baby, Ginger, Posh, Sporty yes now that's your lot We're the Spice Girls ready to go Ladies and gents can you please take your seats And we hope that you enjoyed the show ..-lady is a vamp"
i was watching myx a while ago,, myx backtrack,, featured ang spice girls,, hay.. ask camyl on how we admire spice girls,, back then when we were in grade three.. my tito had a cd,, ung una nilang album and i could remember,, noon, 7x a day ata kung mapatugtog ko un,, and i used to sing with a mike.. ung two become one,, fav ko un,,, me and my cousin will sing it over and over until someone from the outside will watch us,, hehe,, its only then that we'll realize na nakakahiya na pala kasi sobrang lakas ng kanta namin,, hehehe... i even bought a notebook,, with the spice girls as its cover. hehe.. and i also bought their 2nd album,, i just don't know where it is now.. that's how addicted i am with the spice girls.. i was really sad when they decided to go on solo.. if i remember it ryt,, geri haliwell was the first to separate from thegroup? ginger spice,, hehe.. i really had a spice girls fever before,, hehe.. my tito still kept the cd ,. ah! naalala ko.. in the cd, there was a picture of "spice ring" .. man i really dreamt of hving that ring before.. hehe..
nga pala,, i still have my spice girls stickers with me.. i got it from chupa chups lollipos and some were just given to me by kristine.. another spice girls adict before..
Friday, August 18, 2006
user!
my day didn't went fine! how will you start your day right if at 6am in the morning someone you don't know will text you and tell you that she knows your every move!
who the hell are you to mess up with us! do we know you? and do you know us in the first place? you were the one who started it all and yet you were telling me na pinagtulung tulungan ka namin. damn you. you're a user,, a user of someone's name. don't you have your own name? pathetic!
i was just asking u , who you really are and why are u using rizza's name.. you have no ryt to flood my inbox with all your nasty words! and then you will tell me and rizza that you'll gonna do something to us. what.. you'll kill us! shit you.. you even told me that you were in front of "centrum" [stupid! it's sentrum not centrum!] and you'll hurt me if you saw me. hell yeah!
i believe you never really know me, nor rizza.. you were just acting as if you know us to tell us those things. can't you see.. i'm still alive,i'm here in my house, you said that i won't be able to go home.. bitch.
what right do u have to scold us with such nasty words? excuse me. whoever bitch you are, we will never stoop to ur level. asshole.
you are an
uneducated bitch. why don't you just mess with your life. never mess with us.. even if its not my name that you used,still, u used my friend's name, u replied to her with ur own street words and when i texted you asking a question, you did the same to me. damn you.
again,,
whoever you are..
Fuck You.
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excuse me for every words that i said,, i'm just really mad.. really.. i am. u can't blame me, if someone will threaten you and will tell you nasty words .. who won't get mad?
Tuesday, August 08, 2006
...is it possible to pick up the pieces of friendship that started it all?..
we had no classes today.. feast day ni st. dominic de guzman.. praise st. dominic... i will b able to study for our botany quiz un thursday,, and oh,, we also had a quiz on pharma and math on thursday.. cursed!
i'll study na lng l8er..
before i forgot..
haPpY 18th BirthDay
Mark Marron Mercado MEndoza!!!!
HapPy birThdAy
MArk Eugene Mendoza!!
hAPpY biRthdaY
Maree Aiko Dawn Lipat!!
i called eujin a while ago just to greet him,, aun.. madali lang, la sya signal eh..
"when a door closes,, a window opens.."
i came to think of this saying,, after everything that happened, there's this one person who helped me with my problems,, he never leave me in my time of loneliness,, and i really appreciate everything that he does for me,, we maybe far from each other,, [he was in lipa] but his presence reallymatters.. if it wasn't thru him, i wudn't be happy today,, i might still be in my depressing period over someone,, yeah.. thank you so much.. "thanks mon2"..
we had our heart - to - heart talk wid gekay a while ago.. we talked about diff things,, specially that we are experiencing the same situation ..
it started when i told gekay what i have red in candymag.. it goes like this..
"i am beginning to see that loving someone means entering a whole new world of complication, i mean, friendships are complicated enough, but when youre in a relationship, you give the other person a hold over you that commands so much more. you surrender to that person the power to break your heart, in the true sense of the word. and after that , is it pocible to pick up the pieces of the friendship that started it all?-katies diary"
truly, entering a relationship with your friend would mean lots of complications,, and when the two of you decided to quit.. will you ever have your friendship back to how it was before? i doubt.. i remember sir marquez when i was in lvl7.. he was discusing about a jar.,, once it's broken,, and you decided to put the pieces back togehter.. there will always be "lamat" .. and it can never be back to its original form and appearance,, i can never forget what sir marquez had said because during the time that he was discussing about this eh.. kakabreak lang namin ni marc! hahaha.. anyweiz,, what's my point? a failed relationship can never be back to how it was before,, hmm.. but we cud always start a new one,, let me jst quote what gekay had told me a while ago..
"mahirap na kasing ituloy yan eh..kea kailangan ng bago.. bagong panahon, bagong simula.. wag ng ituloy ang isang pagkakamali.. both of u nid tym.. and space. maaaus din un,, kaia lang hindi pa ngaun, nde pa ngaung comlicated pa ang mga bagay .. mahirap kasing ipilit ang ndi pa dapat mangyre.."
i got it.. it's not yet the time .. maybe soon,, when all's well.. it wud be better to strt a new friendship with him,, and i'm looking forward for that time.. i just miss everyhting..
magulo na ba post ko? jst can't organize my tots..
Sunday, August 06, 2006
not feeling well.,
i wasn't really feeling well today.. yesterday.. and the other day.. hay.. my throat hurts,, i can't speak well.
hay,, i am too tired.. sometimes i just feel like my body will collapse..
yesterday we watched the play "a beautiful philippines".. boring. aun.. may itsura dun ung crisostomo ibarra. chinito,, nice body! weee...
charlesh texted me last nyt.. hay.. i realy miss them na!
i'm being stupid again, yeah! hay,, i'm so caught up with many things. i don't know how to say them here..
i wasn't really feeling well today.. yesterday.. and the other day.. hay.. my throat hurts,, i can't speak well.
hay,, i am too tired.. sometimes i just feel like my body will collapse..
yesterday we watched the play "a beautiful philippines".. boring. aun.. may itsura dun ung crisostomo ibarra. chinito,, nice body! weee...
charlesh texted me last nyt.. hay.. i realy miss them na!
i'm being stupid again, yeah! hay,, i'm so caught up with many things. i don't know how to say them here..
Friday, August 04, 2006
isang masayang araw..
msaya ang araw na toh,, hehe.. la lang.. dami nakakatuwa nangyare..
la kame klase ngaun,, may 40 mins chem kami ngaun.. may first friday mass ang faculty of pharma,, aun.. lang klase hanggang 12,, after ng nakakinis na chem lab,, umatend kami ng mass.. aun,, mga natapos un mga 9:10.. ganon.. after nun,, napagkasunduan ang ilang araw ng pinagtatalunan na panonood ng sine.. ako+jelly+roda+katch+marion+yves.. aun,, nung isang araw pa kasipinagtatalunana kung saan manonood ng sine,, kung sa MOA ba o sa gateway.. may 5 free tickets kasi si marion ng Just My Luck,, aun, binigay nia samin ung 4 tapos nagbayad si roda.. heheh.. aun,, dahil maaga pa at sarado pa gateway.. daan muna ministop.. akala ko andun si commerce boy.. ala pala,, sabi kasi ni ana eh.ΓΌ
dahil hindi namin lam ang sinasakyang jeep hanggang legarda at masyado mahal ang tribike.. aun nilakad namin mula p.noval hanggang legarda station.. adventure! haha.. kung saan2 kami dumaan at talgang nakakapagod ha.. malayo din pala un.. =p
after nun,, aun lrt hanggang cubao.. tapos,, libot2 sa gateway.. suko sina yves,, haha.. kaia kami ni roda ang nag libot2.. 2pm pa pala ung showing ng just my luck eh,, matagal na paghihintay un..
aun,, dahil super gutom na kami.. lalo na ko eh kumain na kami sa foodcourt.. cebu.. bla bla.. nakalimutan ko ung kinainan namin,, aun. laftrip.. saya.. dahil naka sun kami,, tinawagan namin sina paolo.. haha. un ang talgang nkktawa,, aun. nakkpag joke si pretty baby kay pretty boy! muhaha..
after nun,, punta sa goodwill.. pinagtripan ang mga libro.. sari-sari nag mga nakita naming libro,, haha.. lalo na sa hobbies section! haha.. ung drawing ng saging..hihihi..
after nun, sine na.. aun.. bili ticket... aun,, nantrip sa sine.. tawag ule kina paolo at anthony,, haha.. lakas ng trip..
nga pala , nadapa si roda sa hagdan ng sinehan.. hahaha.. ang upuan k nga pala ay j14.. aus! fav no. ko at first letter ng name ko,, galeng! aun..
ganda ng just my luck,, nakakatuwa.. panoodin niu,, pwede pala un noh.. maipapass mo ung luck mo sa isbang tao sa pamamagitan ng kiss,, haha.. at pwede niu un pagpasapasahan. aus! di ko na kkwento,, baka di pa napapanood ng iba..
isa lang masasabi ko dun.. remember nung nadapa ako sa ust. .haha.. naipasa ko na sa mga friends ko ang kamalasan ko,, after kong madapa.. sumunod na skin si jelly kahapon ng naglalakad kami,, parang nag out of bal langsiya at di natuluyan sa pagdapa.. tas kanina si rodz,, sa sinhan paakyat.. at after nun,, nung pababa kami ay si yves naman ang nadulas sa hagdan., haha.. humanda na sina kat at marion.. kau na sunod,,aun. basta,. nakaktawa.. may nagsshooting pa nga sa gateway eh,, hay naku,, mganda nga ung mall,, bulok naman elavator! hahaha.. magnada pa elvtor ng rob.. aun,, basta,. ganun.. dami nangyare.. haha!
bukas manonood pa kami ng play sa med audtitorium,, hay naku..
Tuesday, August 01, 2006
commerce
dhil august na ngayon, at kagaya ng nakasanayan ko mula pa sa st. joseph hanggang sa lasalle ai buwan ng wika ngaun,, kaia naman.. tagalog mode muna ko. sabagay mas madali mag post ng tagalog.. hehehe..
ung title ng post ko ngaun.. wala iang kinalaman sa course,, hehehe.. pero may kinalaman ian sa tao. hehehe.. aus ba?
ganto kasi unn
nong sabado.. pagkatapos namin manood ng play "Sa Ngalan Ng AMa" sa SM CIty Manila .. pagkalabas namin ng sinehan.. biglang nawala si Rita.. haha.. kaia hinanap namin sya.. sa paghahanap namin.. sa may dulo.. sa may mga pila para sa next schedule ng play ai may nakita ko!! hahaha.. habang hinahanap ko si rita at nagtitingin kung saan ay nakita ko ung lalaking nakatingin sakin,, medju naka smile.. shit,, ang gwapo!! hahaha,, grabe.. natulala ko sa knya.. as in! matangkad,maputi, basta.. gwapo talaga.. habang naglalakad kami ay nakatingin talga ko sa kanya,, kasi talga agaw pansin siya.. pagkalampas namin sa barkadahan nila.. ganto ang nangyre..
Jelly : "shit, may gwapo!"
Jo Anna : "ui may nakita kong gwapo!"
Jelly : "nakita mo din?"
Jo Anna : "ung andon,, matangkad, maputi ,, tirik ang buhok!?"
Jelly : "un nga! kala ko ako lang nakapansin! nakatingin kasi satin.. hahahaha!"
Jo ANna : "hahaha.. ang gwapo talga,, tara balikan natin! hahahaha"-pagbalik-
Jo Anna : "ay wala na.."
Jelly : "un ung mga kasama nia kanina eh,, wala na.."
Jo Anna: "asan na kaia un?"
Jelly: "baka nag cr.. un ung mga kasama nia eh.."
aun ,, hindi na ule namin sya nakita sa pila..
sya pa lang ang nakita kong gwapo sa ust mula noong pumasok ako dito,, hehehe.. syempre pangalawa sa knya si uge,, hehe.. ung name nia? si "commerce boy".. hehehe.. un ung tawag ko sa kanya eh kasi hindi ko sya kilala.. eh commerce ung course nia. sana makita ko ule sya sa ust.. hehehe.. at kaninang lunch.. dahil wala prof namin sa theo ai early lunch kami.. pagkakain,, bumili ako ng sim ng sun.. tapos ako+jelly+rachel dretso sa commerce bldg.. hahaha.. nagbabakasakali.. hihihihi.. naisip namin ni jelly na sana pala eh nung nakita na namin siya aygumawa na agad kami ng paraan,, dapat kunware naghahanap kami kung saan ung dulo ng pila tapos magtatanong kami sa kanila. hehehe.. kainis.. sana nasenyasan ko na agad si jelly nung nakita namin sya.. ang problema,, preho kaming natulala.. hahaha.. may 1 month pa ko para makilala sya.. nag deal kasi kami nina marion na kailangan makilala ko sya in 1month,., katuwaan lang! naku sana makita ko ule si "commerce boy".. hehe..
eto pa.. sabi nga nila.. "grab every opportunity.."
sa pharma may cute din.. hahaha.. ipapakilala na sana ko sa knya kasu ai na shy ako,, hahaha,, ngaun ai lagi na ko nasa labas ng classroom bago mag botany.. hehehe.. next week na lang,, hehehe..
la lang,, nakakatuwa lang.. masaya na ko eh. kahit wala sya.. at pinipilit ko tlagang maging masaya.. aus pala noh kahit wala ung taong akala mo noon eh hindi mo kaia pag nawala sya.. sa una lang pala mahirap tsaka masakit, pero pag nagtagal. masasanay ka din na wla sia.. lalo na pag naramdaman mo na iniwan ka nia nung mga panahon na kilangan mo sia,, nung panahon na kailangan mo ung kaibigan mo para magpalakas ng loob sau kasi halos sumuko ka na.. ewan ko,, basta masaya nako kahit wala siya.. "
kahit wala ka.."
